All I have to say is all what you know already, to confirm what
you already know, the message of the Prophet (Sallallahu alaihi wa sallam) as given
by
God - the Religion of Truth. As human beings we are given a consciousness
and a duty that has placed us at the top of creation. Man is created to
be God's deputy on earth, and it is important to realize the obligation to
rid ourselves of all illusions and to make our lives a preparation for the
next life. Anybody who misses this chance is not likely to be given another,
to be brought back again and again, because it says in Qur'an Majeed that
when
man is brought to account, he will say, "O Lord, send us back and
give us
another chance.
" The Lord will say, "If I send you back you
will do the
same."
MY EARLY RELIGIOUS UPBRINGING
I was brought up in the modern world of all the luxury and the
high life
of
show business. I was born in a Christian home, but we know that every
child
is born in his original nature - it is only his parents that turn him to
this or that religion. I was given this religion (Christianity) and
thought
this way. I was taught that God exists, but there was no direct contact
with
God, so we had to make contact with Him through Jesus - he was in fact
the
door to God. This was more or less accepted by me, but I did not swallow
it
all.
I looked at some of the statues of Jesus; they were just stones with no
life. And when they said that God is three, I was puzzled even more but
could not argue. I more or less believed it, because I had to have
respect
for the faith of my parents.
POP STAR
Gradually I became alienated from this religious upbringing. I started
making music. I wanted to be a big star. All those things I saw in the
films
and on the media took hold of me, and perhaps I thought this was my God,
the
goal of making money. I had an uncle who had a beautiful car.
"Well," I
said, "he has it made. He has a lot of money." The people
around me
influenced me to think that this was it; this world was their God. I decided then that this was the life for me; to make a lot of money,
have
a great life.' Now my examples were the pop stars. I started making
songs,
but deep down I had a feeling for humanity, a feeling that if I became
rich
I would help the needy. (It says in the Qur'an, we make a promise, but
when
we make something, we want to hold onto it and become greedy.)
So what happened was that I became very famous. I was still a teenager,
my
name and photo were splashed in all the media. They made me larger than
life, so I wanted to live larger than life and the only way to do that
was
to be intoxicated (with liquor and drugs).
IN HOSPITAL
After a year of financial success and 'high' living, I became very ill,
contracted TB and had to be hospitalized. It was then that I started to
think: What was to happen to me? Was I just a body, and my goal in life
was
merely to satisfy this body? I realized now that this calamity was a
blessing given to me by Allah, a chance to open my eyes - "Why am I
here?
Why am I in bed?" - and I started looking for some of the answers.
At that
time there was great interest in the Eastern mysticism. I began reading,
and
the first thing I began to become aware of was death, and that the soul
moves on; it does not stop. I felt I was taking the road to bliss and
high
accomplishment. I started meditating and even became a vegetarian. I now
believed in 'peace and flower power,' and this was the general trend.
But
what I did believe in particular was that I was not just a body. This
awareness came to me at the hospital.
One day when I was walking and I was caught in the rain, I began running
to
the shelter and then I realized, 'Wait a minute, my body is getting wet,
my
body is telling me I am getting wet.' This made me think of a saying
that
the body is like a donkey, and it has to be trained where it has to go.
Otherwise, the donkey will lead you where it wants to go.
Then I realized I had a will, a God-given gift: follow the will of God.
I
was fascinated by the new terminology I was learning in the Eastern
religion. By now I was fed up with Christianity. I started making music
again and this time I started reflecting my own thoughts. I remember the
lyric of one of my songs. It goes like this: "I wish I knew, I wish
I knew
what makes the Heaven, what makes the Hell. Do I get to know You in my
bed
or some dusty cell while others reach the big hotel?" and I knew I
was on
the Path.
I also wrote another song, "The Way to Find God Out." I became
even more
famous in the world of music. I really had a difficult time because I
was
getting rich and famous, and at the same time, I was sincerely searching
for
the Truth. Then I came to a stage where I decided that Buddhism is all
right
and noble, but I was not ready to leave the world. I was too attached to
the
world and was not prepared to become a monk and to isolate myself from
society.
I tried Zen and Ching, numerology, tarot cards and astrology. I tried to
look back into the Bible and could not find anything. At this time I did
not
know anything about Islam, and then, what I regarded as a miracle
occurred.
My brother had visited the mosque in Jerusalem and was greatly impressed
that while on the one hand it throbbed with life (unlike the churches
and
synagogues which were empty), on the other hand, an atmosphere of peace
and
tranquillity prevailed.
THE QUR'AN
When he came to London he brought back a translation of the Qur'an,
which
he
gave to me. He did not become a Muslim, but he felt something in this
religion, and thought I might find something in it also.
And when I received the book, a guidance that would explain everything
to
me
- who I was; what was the purpose of life; what was the reality and what
would be the reality; and where I came from - I realized that this was
the
true religion; religion not in the sense the West understands it, not
the
type for only your old age. In the West, whoever wishes to embrace a
religion and make it his only way of life is deemed a fanatic. I was not
a
fanatic, I was at first confused between the body and the soul. Then I
realized that the body and soul are not apart and you don't have to go
to
the mountain to be religious. We must follow the will of God. Then we
can
rise higher than the angels. The first thing I wanted to do now was to
be
a
Muslim.
I realized that everything belongs to God, that slumber does not
overtake
Him. He created everything. At this point I began to lose the pride in
me, because hereto I had thought the reason I was here was because of my own
greatness. But I realized that I did not create myself, and the whole
purpose of my being here was to submit to the teaching that has been
perfected by the religion we know as Al-Islam. At this point I started
discovering my faith. I felt I was a Muslim. On reading the Qur'an, I
now
realized that all the Prophets sent by God brought the same message. Why
then were the Jews and Christians different? I know now how the Jews did
not
accept Jesus as the Messiah and that they had changed His Word. Even the
Christians misunderstand God's Word and called Jesus the son of God.
Everything made so much sense. This is the beauty of the Qur'an; it asks
you
to reflect and reason, and not to worship the sun or moon but the One
Who
has created everything. The Qur'an asks man to reflect upon the sun and
moon
and God's creation in general. Do you realize how different the sun is
from
the moon? They are at varying distances from the earth, yet appear the
same
size to us; at times one seems to overlap the other.
Even when many of the astronauts go to space, they see the insignificant
size of the earth and vastness of space. They become very religious,
because
they have seen the Signs of Allah.
When I read the Qur'an further, it talked about prayer, kindness and
charity. I was not a Muslim yet, but I felt that the only answer for me
was
the Qur'an, and God had sent it to me, and I kept it a secret. But the
Qur'an also speaks on different levels. I began to understand it on
another
level, where the Qur'an says, "Those who believe do not take
disbelievers
for friends and the believers are brothers." Thus at this point I
wished
to
meet my Muslim brothers.
CONVERSION
Then I decided to journey to Jerusalem (as my brother had
done). At
Jerusalem, I went to the mosque and sat down. A man asked me what I
wanted.
I told him I was a Muslim. He asked what was my name. I told him,
"Stevens."
He was confused. I then joined the prayer, though not so successfully.
Back
in London, I met a sister called Nafisa. I told her I wanted to embrace
Islam and she directed me to the New Regent Mosque. This was in 1977,
about
one and a half years after I received the Qur'an. Now I realized that I
must
get rid of my pride, get rid of Iblis, and face one direction. So on a
Friday, after Jumma' I went to the Imam and declared my faith (the
Kalima)
at this hands. You have before you someone who had achieved fame and
fortune. But guidance was something that eluded me, no matter how hard I
tried, until I was shown the Qur'an. Now I realize I can get in direct
contact with God, unlike Christianity or any other religion. As one
Hindu lady told me, "You don't understand the Hindus. We believe in one
God; we
use these objects (idols) to merely concentrate." What she was
saying was
that in order to reach God, one has to create associates, that are idols
for
the purpose. But Islam removes all these barriers. The only thing that
moves
the believers from the disbelievers is the salat. This is the process of
purification.
Finally I wish to say that everything I do is for the pleasure of Allah
and
pray that you gain some inspirations from my experiences. Furthermore, I
would like to stress that I did not come into contact with any Muslim
before
I embraced Islam. I read the Qur'an first and realized that no person is
perfect. Islam is perfect, and if we imitate the conduct of the Holy
Prophet
(Sallallahu alaihi wa sallam) we will be successful. May Allah give us
guidance to follow the path of the ummah of Muhammad (Sallallahu alaihi
wa
sallam). Ameen!
Yusuf Islam (formerly Cat Stevens)
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